I know i haven't been here for a long time, or i should say i don't use le anymore.. but the bloody blogspot ain't working.. and i have a sudden urge to say something here.. so ya, here i am..

Read through some bulletins in friendster.. There's one posted by ryl about the story.. it's sad.. i feel so fortunate to have *her and knowing that she loves me and i love her.. i can't imagine one day if she were to leave my life, what would it be.. if that day has to come, please let me know in advance.. at least i know i can stop it from coming..

passby another bulletin about life.. it's posted by xin yi if i'm not wrong.. saw this part about who you should marry.. marry someone whom u can really talk to.. coz towards the end of life, when u are old, communication is important.. i realised that's not really true for me.. i can't really talk well with *her.. we do have things that we don't agree with.. different point of views, different opinion.. then how? break? nonsense.. but i believe that as long as u have things to talk about in the future.. it would be the best.. what can u talk about? memories.. that's why i'm trying hard to create the memories.. so when we are old, we can talk about the sweet and bitter times in our life.. i'm sure we will have alot of things to talk about.. =]

i've just did something good recently.. helping purp`jose to patch with her gf.. her gf is like me.. that's why i know why her stead would ask for a break up and what can be done.. gave her advice on what she can do.. i have to thanks *her for this coz *she's the one who knows best.. told her what *her did to me when i asked for a break up and blah.. it helps.. what does it proves? *she's a good gf of coz.. -smilez-

i realised something that's in me.. i tends to get angry easily.. when i can't contact *her.. the helplessness in me.. i got pissed off everytime we have misunderstandings.. when ever i got angry while talking to *her, i'll try to calm myself down.. but not everytime works.. and i miss *her more and more.. i don't know what this feeling is but i'll just think about *her.. it's way much more than other days.. even in the past.. this feeilng seems so strong.. but maybe i didn't feel it before.. i don't know what it is.. and i olso don't know how to express it..

maybe it's because we haven't been seeing each other often.. ever since my common test starts.. and i think from now till the start of my holidays, i won't be able to see *her often due to my studies.. i'm sorry.. Well, guess i'm missing *her too much that's why.. 2 days le.. tomorrow will be the third day.. hope i can see her on fri.. but.. -ssighh- don't dare to think so high.. don't want to disappoint myself and *her..

sat i olso not free.. have to study with friends.. end of semester exam coming.. being a slacker for the past few months, i have to work much harder than others.. i still don't whether i can pass my common test or not.. then end of semester coming.. i really don't know what to do.. -ssighh-

i'm looking forward to the holidays.. at least even if i have to work more, i know that i have more time for *her as i don't have to study.. work won't take so much time of mine.. =] well, guess i've gotta go.. study~ -ssighh-

i miss *you girl... hope to see you soon.. i love *you lots.. -hugs- & *kisses* i won't leave *you.. i will make sure we won't drift apart even if we seldom see each other.. i won't let myself think so much and affect us.. i know how much *you mean to me after so much.. and through these days when we don't see each other, i know how much i miss *you.. my love for *you won't die just like that.. it will last.. till the day i die.. our vows.. our love.. our faith.. our future.. there's something which i always say and promise.. and i want to let everyone knows.. *You are my last girl.. after *you, i won't have anymore steads.. and this ring will always be with me.. even if i don't qualify to wear it on my finger, it'll be on my neck.. just like the previous ring.. i still want to say this before i go..

+ I love *YOU +